Poker Face

I was confused when all my health problems started falling down on me. It was as if God was planning a surprise party for me, but the surprise wasn't all that great. Coming home after my first appointment that pointed toward trouble, I recieved a phone call from my doctor less than an hour from leaving the office. Wow. Your life changes that quickly. My thoughts were,

Hey God,

 Um... I just talked to you yesterday, and you gave me no heads up about this. Nice poker face, but... what in the world?!?! What do I do? All my life I have followed Your word, and praised Your grace. And now, I'm in a state where my life may be in danger, not to mention my ability to reproduce might be tossed out the window. How did we get to here Lord? I know that being 21 means that my youthfulness is on my side. Deep down I want to complain about this still, because to me, everything was almost perfect. But that would be ungrateful. I know you're with me. I'll be your ballerina, as long as you keep me on my toes.
Lets do this.

I'll be done with my finals tomorrow. School has been a blessing in disguise, it has kept me focused and unable to freak out. I'm hoping this doesn't hit me like a ton of bricks when I finish taking my last final.

Pshhh. Keep on, keepin' on, Becks.

what?

My name is Rebecca.
I'm 21,
and as of today
I have a gyno-oncologist.

Get your smile on......

Tonight I'm going to see this guy...



With MLG. I'm pumped... 


Here's a song from his newer cd that makes me wanna fall in llllloooooooveeeeee.




Title from another one of his songs Get your Smile on

My newest Beau..

   I have a new love in my life. I've put off mentioning him for too long. I think its time for him to make his debut. He's currenty taking up a lot of my time the last few weeks. Not because he is overwhelmingly needy and high maintnence, but because he is so darn cute that I just wanna love his little heart!


Enough with all that. I present to ya'll...

Beau Barrington III

aka.. Beau-Sox

aka... Beau-dacious

aka... Beau Bridges
aka... Bill-Beau Baggins

aka... Beau-ciphus

aka... Tim Te-Beau

Out.Of.Control.Much? Yeah. I'll let the pictures do the talkin',

Don't those eyes just melt your heart?

More recently.... 

Looking out into the fields.. :)

He is THE sweetest thing. He's definitely getting loud, finding his voice, and making sure everyone hears it. He loves to get some exercis, and I love walking him. I named him BEAU cause' a dog of rPc is a dog of class, and integrity, no doubt. Uh huh, 'Max', 'Buddy', 'Pal', those don't work for me. I've even hit up Etsy to find him a sweet bow tie. Holla.

Beau is a boxer, given to me by my good friend CJS. He's the runt, so he's a lil' bit behind his litter mates, growth wise. But he's amazing, and sweet. Aaaaand, I  <3 him.

In the words of The Beatles..
"And if you saw my love, you'd love *him too."

As a sit typing..

This miraculous mess is happenin' approximently 3.7 miles from my house.



Party Time

Just a few miles. And what is this gal doin? Typing up a paper on character compromise in the story "Barn Burning." Enticing stuff, I do love me some Faulkner, so I ain't hatin. I better stop cheating myself, I mean this huge country music festival is happening in one of two places this year, and it happens to be in my very own, 85132.  Its kinda pathetic.

I have 3 days to get to  CT. Go Beck, go.

 

Spring

In the depth of winter I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer. 
 - Albert Camus

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I've decided that Spring will be a new start for me. I'll stop abusing myself with thoughts and worries and just live and breath, praise and help. I'll do all things that people seem to neglect when they're are striving for happiness. Plant a seed with little acts and you'll soon have an orchard of returned happiness.

Look and Find

Nothing REALLY stands in our way of finding God. We control everything about our relationship with him, he stays mercifully unchanged, forgivingly the same. He indeed, waits for us to make our move. To everyone, each their own. We should always assume that what works for us, only works for us, another mark of His great Grace.